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Friday, December 31, 2010

So Long 2010

my Top 5 band discoveries
The Classic Crime
Attack Attack!
Mumford & Sons
Chiddy Bang

my Top 10 favorite movies
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1
Toy Story 3
Legend of the Guardians the Owls of Gahoole
The Book of Eli
How to Train your Dragon
Scott Pilgrim vs. The World
Alice in Wonderland
The Chronicles of Narnia the Voyage of the Dawn Treader

its been a great year.
lots of growth
its been a roller coaster.
many new friends
many bumps and trials along the road
Praise God
im growing into His man.

there have been many struggles, and fall outs
but He has always been with me

as i start this new year...we (Raina & I) are going to
try out this relationship.

thats so exciting.
speaking of exciting im chillin' at my good friend Sarah's house in Longview, TX
listening to Gungor
we are going to leave at 1:30 a.m. for Alanta, Georgia with her church college group to go to the PASSION CONFERENCE. :D
its my first time, and im totally stoked.
Kristian Stanfill
Louie Giglio
david crowder band

:) its going be fantastic
a great start to this year.
God is good.
im ready for my mind to be blown this weekend.

Have a wonderful first day of this new year
be safe
God bless

Saturday, December 25, 2010


its the last five minutes of Christmas day, here are my scrambling thoughts

i got $100 for ENTERTAINMART! :D
My girl Raina got Hermione Grangers wand
i got A Christmas Carol Halo Reach, Deadpool graphic novels
i love them, he's paranoid, schitzo haha its hilarious

Jesus is the reason for this season...

Greg Laurie has a wonderful quote about today. check out Lace Edges blogpost to see it
i have a fantastic family...both sides.

and yeah gonna read Beyond Words incerp about Christmas

Michael Caine is the best Scrooge

Friday, December 24, 2010

Super Love Part III

When you love someone enough to let them not hold them back...

thats super love

i have been shown this love...

Oh, I'm a wandering soul
I'm still walking the line that leads me home alone
All I know I still got mountains to climb on my own
On my own

Do you love me enough to let me go?
Do you love me enough to let me go?
To let me follow through, let me fall for you, my love
Do you love me enough to let me go?

Back from the dead of winter
Back from the dead and all our leaves are dry
You're so beautiful tonight
Do you love me enough to let me go?

Back from the dead we went through
Back from the dead and both our tongues are tied
You look beautiful tonight
Do you love me enough to let me go?

But every seed dies before it grows

Do you love me enough to let me go?
Do you love me enough to let me go?
To let me follow through, let me fall for you, my love
Do you love me enough to let me go?

Breathe it in and let it go
Every breath you take is not yours to own
It's not your to hold
Do you love me enough to let me go?

Do you love me enough to let me go?
Do you love me enough to let me go?
To let me follow through, let me fall for you, my love
Do you love me enough to let me go?

Super Love Part II

like in my music post a many splendid thing.
super love is to be able to love over the years, through thick and thin
sick and health
crazy and sane
fights and peace

thats love.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Super Love

so the song definately has grown on me over the years. and its something ive been thinking about lately, just amusingly about my future relationship, but this was the first time i have seen this video.

anywhoisit more about my view of this song in "Super Love: part II"

enjoy the creepy old men in tights. haha, and his sweet crazy act of love towards the lady.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

its Christmas Time

Sooo...Christmas is like a week away...which is CRAZY!!!

i'm not ready, but i am.

PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He sustained me! I stayed up on average until 5 a.m. each day and then sleep for 3-4 hrs before each final.

I'm every form of the word "exhausted"

but the Lord shall bring me rest, and i am resting.
tonight my best friend is staying with me in the dorm while i pack for tomorrow.
he's sleeping now, while i skype with Raina ^^
she's awesome, and i can't wait to see her over Christmas break.

tonight gonna watch The Men Who Stare at Goats and Zombieland


so back to CHRISTMAS!!!
Phil Wickham is my favorite worship leader, and he has a beautiful, wonderful, christmas album.
check out some previews

that and Cellofourte's tribute album to skillet are the two CD's im listening to the most right now. yeah its Christmas and i like this:

i do want to inspire people.
enjoy yourself this season
Jesus is the reason for it.
love, laugh, live...

Saturday, December 4, 2010

She does sing beautifully...

The Movement comes in slow
It's a tune we both should know
But the walls are thin
So we keep our voices low

You're a bird with a pretty mouth
You're a bird with songs to shout
And the same refrain continues
Singing out
If you love her let her go
She sings beautiful and slow
A tune that only caged birds know

So you're in nashville on the phone
And I'm back here at home
And the words are new
But I recognize the tone

If you love her let her go
She's beautifully composed
A tune that only caged birds know

My love goes free...
My love goes free...
My love goes free...


* im emotional sometimes
* i don't like to assume...but its hard not to sometimes
* i was going to watch a movie tonight...but most movies i want to see will have a relative love story intertwined in it...and tonight thats not what my heart needs
* i wish i didnt get so jealous...
they're not objects we keep forever, they are individuals that need freedom...
to choose their life
their job
their passions
their love
* i'll be okay
time to pull out my sword...
i could use a good read.

Friday, December 3, 2010

it's Christmas time!

sooo to sum up the crud in my life:
my spiritual walk with God, was only music, mentor sessions, and sunday mornings.

thats why my world was collasping

thats why ive had negative effects after my mentor meetings

thats why my roommate, and my darling were

mad at me, are hurt by me, do not know this me

i felt alone...

so very much, i didn't know wait to say...
its not easy

im not gonna let this Christmas season suck
Praise be to God for showing me these faults, and guide me to be my own person again. my old self, as i grow in my new self.
Happy Christmas.

Monday, November 29, 2010

2:45 a.m.

so ive been talking to this bird-girl for almost 2 hours on skype...

~so basically~
i like her.

Saturday, November 27, 2010


heyy you. lets runaway
lets blow this joint; not drugs, but more so lets burn rubber
lets fly
lets get away and leave the rest behind
because baby when its you and me
everything is alright
you love me
i love you
i can always be there for you,
and well you can be there for me too.
im tired of this.
actually we need people
it cant be just us.
well it can
it should
it will
we wont shut out the past completely but...
Lets go travel Europe!!
haha WAIT we need money!
we'll get money
its wonderful there, and we could start a new,
and get to living our lives
as our life.
then we'll tour Europe
BUT later we should vacate to AUSTRALIA
I want to live there
for some extended period of time..
it'll be fun.
you could be a photographer,
and a journalist (the diary or blog or imagionative Alice-esque author kind)
and i'd be a little of everything
mostly a sketch artist, but incorporate lots of styles, and such
and we could make movies.
professional Sundance like movies.
not...anyother kind. lol
thats awkward:
palm tree
turtle is what it is...God given.
im not sure where i want mine to go right now...
but i kinna want you to be apart of it.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Forbidden Love

I love you
i love you
our love will last forever
our love will last forever, in the context of love, and not lovely feelings alone
lets run run run
will have fun fun fun
and when its over...what 'll happen?
will i still love you the same way?
when its over will i still love you?
will i still want to pursue you?
to marry you?
live my life in unity with you?
this is great
i totally love you!
i totally love you
i accept you
will never judge you
i want the best for you
i will always be here to
with you.
but romantically...
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!
romantically I'm unsure
I'm not ready
romantically we are not in the same readiness
that is to say,
i don't think...
maybe we are...
I want to be ready
i want to say we should spend the rest of our life her on earth together...
i want you
i want you so baAaAaAaad
i love you
you love me
we should be free
we are free
in Christ we are free
outside there is bondage, whether we acknowledge it or not.
sex is something i am highly anticipating...but i can't have it now
i want to soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
I'm trying to become a man of God
(not a monk! haha, i do plan to kiss girls, and one day have one as my wife. lol)
I find joy in it, and joy trumps happiness.
can you hear me?
we'll be together...always
just you and me
we don't need anybody else
we need each other.
simple as that; but we need other people...
godly people, ungodly people
but be influenced by the godly,
and influence the less so.
we grow through all these experiences.
our bond as friend slash Jesus freaks can be strong without sex.
honestly it really can.
boundaries build a solid strong, trustworthy, non temporary relationship
totally openness and outpouring of self, is less stable.
openness is great, but with boundaries.
continues to hold you*
i love you...I'm just trying to understand it all.

Thursday, November 11, 2010


drive. drive. drive.
I'm on my way.
hello again...hi
lets watch a movie
Tin Man
(500) Days of summer
Moulin Rouge
The Secret of Kells
...maybe not all those movies..
yeah, we should just spend time together focused, you know?
watch Tin Man part 2 and 3
hang out together
catch up
we're merry
we're safe
we're happy
we're together

Tuesday, November 9, 2010


"if i don't continue to invest in my relationship with God, my outlet i go to when my friends are with there significant others, i can have someone to go to and not feel lonely. without the relationship with God, my dive into movies and television would be just as unsatisfying as if i was watching porn every night." -Myself talking to my brother

...i've started watching porn every night.

help me.

Friday, November 5, 2010

im not on a horse

im on a unicycle
on a tight-rope
and im juggling...
  • academics
  • social life
  • passion

those are my three globes

im shaking 'em up

im not a professional, im hardly amateur

theres not enough hours in the day for me to allow a equal time to disperse to all of them

im dropping the globes

starting a fresh...sort of

somethings gotta give, and i don't like to give up social life, and i have to do well academically

but what about my passion?! what about drawing, sketching when has my pened something that had depth to it...something that was not just a doodle on a boring piece of hmwk or exam?

ive gotta find time...if you catch please it, please come and share it with me.


time is melting
time is short
time is one force we can't have enough of
time is not in our hands
time is in our hands
we choose to do what we do
we choose how to spend our time
we choose what part of the day is wasted and what is a blessing
i have a lot in my hands
i have cast my lot each day
i have chosen what i do
i have procrastinated
i have moped
i have wasted
but i listened
but i helped
but i sang
but i watched
but i loved

seems like _____________

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Chewing my own tongue

i give you with the finest flower in the field
i love you
but ive hidden thorns on it
i don't care about you
your pierced; bleeding
i ask why your bleeding?
honestly i love you...
you still bleed
i really do
blood hits the ground

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Mumford and Sons

I'm a Little Lion Man

Weep for yourself, my man,
you'll never be what is in your heart
weep little lion man,
you're not as brave as you were at the start
rate yourself and rake yourself,
take all the courage you have left
wasted on fixing all the problems
that you made in your own head

but it was not your fault but mine
and it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
didn't I, my dear?
didn't I, my...

tremble for yourself, my man,
you know that you have seen this all before
tremble little lion man,
you'll never settle for any of your scores
your grace is wasted in your face,
your boldness stands alone among the wreck
learn from your mother or else spend your days biting your own neck

but it was not your fault but mine
and it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
didn't I, my dear?

but it was not your fault but mine
and it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
didn't I, my dear?
didn't I, my dear?

but it was not your fault but mine
and it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
didn't I, my dear?

but it was not your fault but mine
and it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
didn't I, my dear?
didn't I, my dear?


i wake up each day with regret,
i trapped my life in a net,
God please help me out,
i scream and i shout,
because i may never forget...

im a monster,
i wish i was in your closet.
although that would make me a creeper.
im a monster,
i miss you.
im a monster.
one day
i may heal
one day
i might try again
one day
they all will realize
im a monster.

honestly i think the only thing that i can smile about is my curly Roman style gladiator hair...but it doesn't replace what ive slaughtered.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010


Skillet is coming out with ALL strings album before Christmas (O.O) WEEEEEEEEE!!!!!
I'm so excited
"i stay up late alot...not because i can't sleep. mainly because...oh i dunno, its something different every night; homework, catering job, 30 seconds to mars concert, video games, netflix, glee, flight of the concords (both who voiced in the same simpsons episode), reading, and talking."
haven't blogged in awhile
i love music
God is pretty awesome
i went for a walk tonight, talked and enjoyed the outside
also i watched some flight of the concords, which i really really really like now
i also like:
my hair,
Legend of the Guardians the owls of Gahoole
Halo Reach,
Deathly Hallows Part 1 trailers,
Thor trailers,
life has been rough lately, my fault...undeniably my fault
wondering where to go from here..

Sunday, September 26, 2010

It's dangerous business walking out your front door

I've been up at this all night long
I've been drowning in my sleep
I've prayed for your safe place
And its time for us to leave

Time is running, its running on empty and the gas is running out
I've decided that tonight is the night
That I let love aside
Full speed ahead this seems to be the place
I've seen this once before
Planned perfection sought in my dreams
Hoping this would take you home

My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
Kiss me one last time

Around this turn where the cross will cast your shadow
The people will all gather
To remember such a day
Where the flames grew as high as trees
And the world stopped
It stopped for you and me

My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your eyes)
My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
(So hold on tight)
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your...)

I will now bring new meaning to the word alone
Endless nights of dreaming of life
And the days we should have spent here

Drowning in my sleep I'm drowning in my sleep
Drowning in my sleep I'm drowning in my sleep

Glass shatters and comes to a halt
I thought we'd be there by now
I thought it would be so much quicker than this

Pain has never been so brilliant
I made sure you were buckled in
Now you can walk hand in hand
Hand in hand with Him

My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your eyes)
My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
(So hold on tight)
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your...)

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Friday, September 17, 2010


sooooo not going to bed till 2 a.m. -3 a.m. is becoming the norm...
im not a big fan of this...the bags under my eyes are beginning to weigh me down...

i like lighters,
& fire is pretty.

for the record, i wouldn't mind staying up this late...if i felt like i was doing something worthwhile...hah

Monday, September 13, 2010

I'm not okay, but...

"Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin' "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', ("This is my message to you-ou-ou")

Singin' "Don't worry 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."
Singin' "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', "This is my message to you-ou-ou:"

Singin' "Don't worry about a thing, worry about a thing, oh!
Every little thing gonna be all right. Don't worry!"
Singin' "Don't worry about a thing" - I won't worry!
"'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."

Singin' "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right" - I won't worry!
Singin' "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."
Singin' "Don't worry about a thing, oh no!
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!

My Chemical Romance

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!

(Trust Me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay


Saturday, September 11, 2010

breathe... a very satisfying outlet.
i had not really explored that arena, as an artist. DON'T misunderstand me,
i have always thought of dance as a superb art form. (and just down right
fun sometimes, socially speaking)
but as for my partaking of a dance,
alone. that was something i had
never done. i had never truly danced like
dreamers tell you to:
dance to hearts
content. dance like nobodys looking.
dance without caring what others think.
dance and be joyous, or passionately
true to whatever state of emotion your

well...i just danced...not 5 minutes ago, and i dare say it was a most unresevred dance...God, that was good.

~cosmic love~

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Here I Am

i like to be needed… i am needed… id like to be needed more from certain people…but thats not how it works... i love my friends..near and far. i am most delighted to be there for you.

as for those who don’t need me, have a nice life.

sighs* need is a strong word...I'm a Christian, i have a relationship with God. I need Him, everyone needs Him way more than anyone needs me...

I'm a "little Christ one" and we need does it make some sorta sense that i like to be needed? ....probably, not. im thinking more selfishly... definately not wwjd

one thing is for certain: we have a need to be loved, and we need to love.


Saturday, August 21, 2010

To those who believe in The Light

This is a call to arms, gather soldiers
Time to go to war
This is a battle song, brothers and sisters
Time to go to war

Did you ever believe?
Were you ever a dreamer?
Ever imagine heart open and free?
Did you ever deny?
Were you ever a traitor?
Ever in love with your bloodless disease?

This is a call to arms, gather soldiers
Time to go to war
This is a battle song, brothers and sisters
Time to go to war

Ever want to be free?
Do you even remember?
Want to be god and devil like me?
Ever want to just stop?
Do you want to surrender?
Or fight for victory?

Here we are at the start, I can feel the beating of our hearts
Here we are at the start...

Darkness falls, here comes the rain to wash away the past and the names
Darkness falls, here comes the rain to end it all, the blood and the game

Far, far away in a land that time can't change
Long, long ago in a place of hearts and gold
Far, far away in a land that time can't change
Long, long ago in a place of hearts and gold

This is a call to arms, gather soliders
Time to go to war
(Far, far away...)
This is a battle song, brothers and sisters
Time to go to war
(Long, long ago...)
This is a call to arms, gather soliders
Time to go to war
(Far, far away...)
This is a battle song, brothers and sisters
Time to go to war

This is a call to arms, way of the night
This is a battle song, way of the night

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Love comes

ive gathered that this is a new phase in life.
they change rather often or rather slow.
im coming to a point where i can recognize the phases...
Phillip's phase for this school year:
*focusing on relationships, mind you*
my best friend, my fetus brother and i are not going to be able to spend as much time together
i will cherish the weekends
my friend kelsey says we will be hanging out more
i will enjoy this
my dear raina is six hours away and cannot come home
i will do my best to go and visit her at least once both semesters
my good friend michael kreider is my suitemate for the skool year
i will rejoice and grow with him, in Him
my covenant brother colin has gone off to skool again
we have been growing apart for lack of communication...i will play my part in praying thru this relationship issues
~another part of the phase~
also i will have to learn how to control my jealously, when i am a friend i cannot be jealous...
i will rejoice in my solitude, while being active in my new community
(confusing isnt it, haha)
i will discover a little more of who i am by doing so
sometime i will find an open door and start to casually date
diving deeper into prayer and creative art worship
theres more but i cant recall matter. this is the most notable...
Hakuna Matata

Sunday, August 15, 2010

im back

i went on an alazkan cruise with my family
it took being away to realize how much i loved her
got to zipline
got to ghetto dogsled
got to see at least 13 humpback whales
saw dolphins, glaciers, eagles, harbor and stellar seals
i swam in the cruiseships swimming pools
i read Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows...
for the second time (it was just as good a 2nd time)
i read the first part of Soul Cravings
my Soul craves intimacy...very badly
oh yeah AND
i ate
and i ate
and i ate somemore
and i prolly pooped just as many times as i ate, which is redonkulous
TMI, I know
i would really like to go back to Seattle
the city is beautiful, the weather is pratically perfect
im back
and its


a couple of weeks ago me and my fetus brother Matthew, both admitted to wanting to casually start dating the same girl. i realized it/ confronted him about...that was a funny awkward conversation but we are growing closer togther strengthing our friendship better still, in these awkward moments.

hey, it was bound to happen, we have the same interests and now we admit to having the same interests in girls. haha we weren't really that suprised.

well heres to an eventful year! *raises glass*


if a boggart were near to me, it would probably change into a baby...actually no no idk it would turn into some personified form of rejection or dissappointment. like if i had let down someone...or if someone rejected me. idk.

anyways, i have been ridiculous and so have they, our season was two years ago, and we just now discovered it. and we cant...

but we will carry on, because we need each other.


...its not a movie, its an experiance

GO AND SEE IT!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Live Love

is really all there is to do...

life is full of emotions, risks, challenges...
i choose to learn about love
discover new aspects,
and how to use them...
love is not all romance and eros
love is a pleothora of somethings...
i love my family
my friends
my enemies
and my God
so yeah im living..and i love...

Thursday, July 15, 2010


i had my appendix taken out, suprised me with cramps, and wouldnt stop till i got it out. which did involve me getting medically violated during a CT scan...*shudders* this adventure, cancelled my plans for the rest of the week, i was staffing at youth camp, now im at my house, watching movies, doodling, and reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows...for the 2nd time ( iwanna be refreshed beforethe movie comes out)

anyways life is eventful, and its good to be loved...

speaking of love, im a(no suprise) having trouble letting go, but i have, but i havent, because i would like to, but i cant, but i will, it just seems like i wont, but i can, i just love her. and would like to be with her.

meanwhile, God opened a door for a dating relationship, *Plot twist* but im praying about it, and we'll see what happens.

then of course theres doors, which arent clearly opened or closed, but may or may not be waiting for me...

i have 3 basic paths to choose from...

and thats a nutshell of my life right now. :) :P :) :/ :P

Monday, July 5, 2010


the David to my Jonathan's birthday is on July 4th, thats what i celebrated.
sure i celebrated our freedom in U.S.A.
but my freedom in Christ is something more important to relfect on,
and matt's birthday
i love that guy sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much
i shot off my own fireworks yesterday, the most fun, was acting like a wizard, with some roman candles.... AVADA CADAVERA!!!!!!
doesn't know what to do about these feelings, i need a place to store them...basically i would like a bank account for heart points, so i can choose wisely and have better control how much of me, i give to someone
this song brightened my day (its a classic)
"zzzzZip pa Dee do dah Ziiip pa Dee day... wonderful feelings..wonderful day.
mister blue bird's on my shoulder."
Pineapple Express is a hilarious movie. Hats off to James Franco, who knew he could be that funny?!
God is persistantly guiding me to do what is right. and i am being an ass aka very stubborn as i follow, but its getting easier everyday. making responsible/mature descisions for the most part.
family guy star wars are the bestest
swimming with Sara& Shauni in the morning will be entertaining
DONUTS!!!! woohoooooo
ive got a pink dino silly band

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Sanctus Real

read the title again! say it out loud. doesnt it sound so cool? thats a bands name, im not entirely in love with them, but two of their songs: 'Forgiven', and 'I'll show you how to live' have really give me joy, in these sea swept days of discover. so please check em out, go find it on youtube, lol.

the Toy Story trilogy is 99% without a doubt my favorite trilogy of all time. :)

wellpers, life goes on...

and i can't help but miss her...i dare say i'll have an explaination for her one day when she asks "why?"
i want to be there, but...lots of variables fall into play...ugh that stupid boy.. throwing away what must have been a great 3ish years, dummbutt...he's gonna regret that .
Tim Hughes is definately a new favorite worship leader, coming in 3rd place of my all time favs:
#3 Tim Hughes
#2 David Crowder
#1 Phil Wickham
well sons and daughters,
life is here
live in the moment
find out who you are
where and with who do you find the most peace?
discover your passion and go immerse your self in it
find an elite fistful of friends who bring out the best in you
when you find them
never let go
above all else live love
and laugh as much as possible...
P.S. check out the music video for the song "Forgiven" by Sanctus Real

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Until Lambs become Lions

Happy Birthday to me...happy birthday to me...

9 of my closeknit friends took me to the Drive-In!!!!!!!!!!!! thats one thing i can check off of my bucket list. :) apart from the bugs it was splendiferous. They are a lot of fun, and mean so much to me :)
sweet memories.

one quote of the night: "Favorite thing about my birthday suit!"
hahaha thats my best friend speaking on my behalf.

Shrek Forever After is a great movie. in my dvd collection it will be as follows: Shrek, Shrek 2, and Shrek Forever After. (Shrek 3 was aweful)
my birthday wish is: the ability to fly.
i have plans for that day when i receive the gift of flight (personal flight, by myself, like iron man or peter pan)
anyways... realistically i wanted herpes (from sara), but that didnt happen. :/
wellpers, im through, going to go read my birthday psalm (this year is psalm 19) and listen to thousand foot krutch

Thursday, May 6, 2010


bet you don't know what that means!

Noun; German. Total artwork; an artistic creation, as the music dramas of Richard Wagner, that syntesizes the elements of music, drama, spectacle, and dance.
i learned it because i did a research power pointy assignment on Elliot Peter Earls, who is in FACT a "certified oddball". One of his series is a (insert above german word) that syntesizes animation, spoken word poetry, motion graphics, interactivity, computer programming, pop song, pop song fragments, prints, photography, short digital film clips and objects.
anyways enough about that joker, (im gonna go beastmode on my powerpoint presentation of him today, Glory be to God)
Wellpers, in continuation of my last post, i still miss you, and i would like to talk, but idk when we could or if you'd want to. definately decided last time we met about the danger, and so ineviatable gotta move on. just kinda want to talk about that.
BUT lets (im addressing all readers again) talk about what i did yesternight.
I laughed until i was teary eyed.
i came off as a racist.
my friends are outrageous, dont always think before they speak, but they are amazing.
rocked out to 30seconds to Mars on the way home(s)
Then Shorty called me!! and we talked 'for a quick sec' which actually was like 30 minutes
and i quote (myself):
"it is times like these that make life worth living"
good stuff...thank you all my friends not only the ones mentioned above but all of ya'll. :)

Tuesday, April 27, 2010


I strongly dislike how much I care about you...
aka...i miss you too..

Saturday, April 24, 2010

dos dias

plain and simple yesterday april 23 was a goxoxd day :P
lots of trust and sunshine.
Also I got to work with my best friend in the entire world, Matthew. :D
I mean to say, he got hired to my catering company at least for the summer.
thats going to be muy DIVERTIDO
As for today, most of my plans fell through, EXCEPT theres still is a possibilty that tonight my dad and i will go see
The Losers
that will be fun. :)

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Waco, glee, & gurls Alamode

Monday, I took a road trip with two of my friends, to attend a Fundraiser concert at Baylor university, which raised money to help send my friend and her two friends, go to india mission trip, this summer.
It was great, because she did not know we where coming, and when we showed up, she cried some, in overwhelming joy. :) i was suprised, because i did not know we were going to be that much of a blessing to her. anyways the bands/singers, were good but she was the best lol. it was good stuff. i heard more on how much she felt blessed by the three of us coming, on two accounts, one being from her father. Definately feeling super happy about it.

so GLEE is fueled by superficial, shallow, but complex, high school drama teachers and students combined. and ive just gotta say that these first two episodes of the new season have been incredulously drama packed. its good stuff.

also i am still kinda the whole relationshippo thoughtz, but will carry on carry on......

the Christian song of the night is "Beautiful" by Shawn Macdonald
the secular song of the night is "Need you Now" by Lady Antebellum

quote of the night: "Phillip loves hearing about how beautiful he is."

this statement is true, but 'love' might be a hyperbole....just appreciates it every once in while lol...and if its in a awesome romanticized situation, you bet your bottom dollar i do.

haha, well thats all for now


Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Theres this creeper...

..who i know, but i dont know. ive got like two ta four guesses, who she might be.

anyways she's been reading my blog, formspringing me, and probably alot of other stuff i need not to know about.

pretty much, she laid down some conviction in the comments box of my last post....and yeah.

i apologize for seemingly obessing over my first love, who apparently everyone knows, in some strange/ awkward way or another.

so yeah, going be working on...moving on....ugh.

actually i have been trying to find myself in the weeks as of late, and its been only slightly productive, because "with every channel on, we don't know where we belong." which for me, is quite true, ive watched a bazillion movies, tv shows, and youtubes, this semester, and its blows my mind. but in the end i need to find myself with little outside influence.

so yeah, 'touche' creeper. God used you. and He got me good, as usual. definately wasnt expecting that.

goodnight my creeper(s)

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Emery week begins

im donating my ears to the band Emery this week.

ive had very strong urges, dreams, thoughts of a second chance with her.........
however its seemingly....a dream only.
ive had little talk with any of my female friends, unless they iniate the conversation with me, we won't talk. i will respond and converse with them if they decide to talk to me, but im trying to not start my own conversations, simply because i feel that....idk... my relationship with God needs to stabilize and i need to stop obessing about fallin in love and marrying the girl he has for me. for the time being....
its killing me.... a lot is changing. im becoming incredbily estudious and pwning the majority of my skool work, and it alongside my responsibilties at church is quite good at taking up the mass majority of my time and energy etc. i just need to find a transition to finding peace and joy in my solitude with God.
if she came, if she called me, i would answer...its a terrifying...yet...still... a beautiful dream....
:) :/ :(

Friday, April 2, 2010


top two girls await to see their loves

Wendy floating outside the open window.

Alice sitting/dreaming on the window sill.

bottom two guys been living without their loves, thinking they would never see them again.

Peter been restlessly sleeping for awhile.

Mad Hatter curling up under his fabrics...

Thursday, April 1, 2010


Today was a day, where i was bestowed a nice suprise.
She came to my house, without warning.
I dont think i can express how suprised i was. She was the last person i would have expected to show up on my doorstep. She came and we talked and it was a bittersweet (more sweet than bitter) restart to our friendship.

Life is goes on....
2010 has been a very unpredictable ride so far...
and i like it.

also i have lots of english hmwk, and poly sci studying to do for next week...pray for me.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

a brief post

i regret what i said in my last post about my former relations with Wendy had become a mere aquaintanceship. i feel like i placed an unequivocated halt to it. which is not something i wanted, still want a friemdship if that be possible.

life continues
..and its GREAT matter how i 'feel'. i need not let my emptions run rampant.
God is in control. i trust him in this season of singleness.
it is well with my soul.

The Princess and the Frog, How to Train your Dragon (3D), Alice in Wonderland, Fantasia 2000 are superb movies.

The Middle, The Office, Community, and Modern Family are all four of my favorite tv shows that are on right now. (GLEE will be back APRIL 13TH)

These bands with their specific CD's have helped me these last months
Phil Wickham- Heaven & Earth
DCB- Church Music
Switchfoot- Hello Hurricane
Fireflight- For Those Who Wait

Upcoming on this blog of mine will be a compilation page of my favorite actors.

wellpers im about to pass out here. im going to bed.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Time and Tide, Love

So its been several a month since my last post, alot has happened:

  • cut down that ol' relationship/affair down to a measley acquaintanceship...buts thats more or less because im thick in the head and struggle in understanding her, or women in general.
  • struggled a HUGE DEAL with pornography, trying to fill whatever void of imaginative lovelust i had. this brought me a greater deal further off course of my relationship with Jesus Christ. which is horrible.
  • therefore i made a COVENANT (which is super serious business) with two of my closest brothers in Christ. this has really helped me alot! im so proud of them.
  • i aced my first semester in college. :D im now in my second semester. im at UTA, studying more or less.
  • Christmas was unreal. very wonderful, my favorite time of year, bought AND made a lot of gifts. and Celebrated the REAL gift, which was God given us His son Jesus. i praise them everyday for their forgiveness and grace, and love.
  • God used me as a tool to lead my cousin back to where he wanted to rededicate his life to Christ. which has been good for him.
  • Im actually leading the young mens bible study on thursday nights, with my brother The Tank. my bearded covenant brother is finally back in school, and even though I MISS HIM GREATLY, i know we are all where we are supposed to be.
  • everyday i recognize the fact more and more that me and my best friend Matthew are 21st century replicas of David and Jonathan from the bible (1 Samuel 18:1 & 2 Samuel 1:26). i wouldnt have gotten far without him in my life.

Amongst all that ive had my shares of up's and down's and the inverse of sorts, and variety of adventures along the way, involving: lots of gasoline for my NissanObot, girlfriends, best friends, sisters, brothers, movies, cinemarks, IMAX's, cookies, popcorn, ice cream, video games, zombies, music, music, music, pastels, inks, and nepaleonese paper.

Tonight ive had a fickled day of stress and depression accumlated from my sheer dislike of excessive desicion making, however i just watched Pirates of the Caribbean At World's End, (which is awesome) and know deep down would matter

p.s. the last 3 bold words is reference to a skillet song called "would it matter" off their new album AWAKE. i plan on having a spectacular adventure, involving the sea and maybe my marriage on a pirate ship.

T T F N [ta ta for now]