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Sunday, September 26, 2010

It's dangerous business walking out your front door

I've been up at this all night long
I've been drowning in my sleep
I've prayed for your safe place
And its time for us to leave

Time is running, its running on empty and the gas is running out
I've decided that tonight is the night
That I let love aside
Full speed ahead this seems to be the place
I've seen this once before
Planned perfection sought in my dreams
Hoping this would take you home

My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
Kiss me one last time

Around this turn where the cross will cast your shadow
The people will all gather
To remember such a day
Where the flames grew as high as trees
And the world stopped
It stopped for you and me

My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your eyes)
My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
(So hold on tight)
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your...)

I will now bring new meaning to the word alone
Endless nights of dreaming of life
And the days we should have spent here

Drowning in my sleep I'm drowning in my sleep
Drowning in my sleep I'm drowning in my sleep
(x6)

Glass shatters and comes to a halt
I thought we'd be there by now
I thought it would be so much quicker than this

Pain has never been so brilliant
I made sure you were buckled in
Now you can walk hand in hand
Hand in hand with Him

My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your eyes)
My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
(So hold on tight)
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your...)

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Friday, September 17, 2010

nightlife

sooooo not going to bed till 2 a.m. -3 a.m. is becoming the norm...
im not a big fan of this...the bags under my eyes are beginning to weigh me down...

i like lighters,
& fire is pretty.

for the record, i wouldn't mind staying up this late...if i felt like i was doing something worthwhile...hah

Monday, September 13, 2010

I'm not okay, but...

"Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin' "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', ("This is my message to you-ou-ou")

Singin' "Don't worry 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."
Singin' "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', "This is my message to you-ou-ou:"

Singin' "Don't worry about a thing, worry about a thing, oh!
Every little thing gonna be all right. Don't worry!"
Singin' "Don't worry about a thing" - I won't worry!
"'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."

Singin' "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right" - I won't worry!
Singin' "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."
Singin' "Don't worry about a thing, oh no!
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!

My Chemical Romance

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!

(Trust Me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay

(Okay)

Saturday, September 11, 2010

breathe...

Dancing...is a very satisfying outlet.
i had not really explored that arena, as an artist. DON'T misunderstand me,
i have always thought of dance as a superb art form. (and just down right
fun sometimes, socially speaking)
but as for my partaking of a dance,
alone. that was something i had
never done. i had never truly danced like
dreamers tell you to:
dance to hearts
content. dance like nobodys looking.
dance without caring what others think.
dance and be joyous, or passionately
true to whatever state of emotion your
in...

well...i just danced...not 5 minutes ago, and i dare say it was a most unresevred dance...God, that was good.


~cosmic love~

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Here I Am

i like to be needed… i am needed… id like to be needed more from certain people…but thats not how it works... i love my friends..near and far. i am most delighted to be there for you.

as for those who don’t need me, have a nice life.


sighs* need is a strong word...I'm a Christian, i have a relationship with God. I need Him, everyone needs Him way more than anyone needs me...

I'm a "little Christ one" and we need Him...so does it make some sorta sense that i like to be needed? ....probably, not. im thinking more selfishly... definately not wwjd

one thing is for certain: we have a need to be loved, and we need to love.

livelove