More, mucho, More

Tuesday, April 27, 2010


I strongly dislike how much I care about you...
aka...i miss you too..

Saturday, April 24, 2010

dos dias

plain and simple yesterday april 23 was a goxoxd day :P
lots of trust and sunshine.
Also I got to work with my best friend in the entire world, Matthew. :D
I mean to say, he got hired to my catering company at least for the summer.
thats going to be muy DIVERTIDO
As for today, most of my plans fell through, EXCEPT theres still is a possibilty that tonight my dad and i will go see
The Losers
that will be fun. :)

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Waco, glee, & gurls Alamode

Monday, I took a road trip with two of my friends, to attend a Fundraiser concert at Baylor university, which raised money to help send my friend and her two friends, go to india mission trip, this summer.
It was great, because she did not know we where coming, and when we showed up, she cried some, in overwhelming joy. :) i was suprised, because i did not know we were going to be that much of a blessing to her. anyways the bands/singers, were good but she was the best lol. it was good stuff. i heard more on how much she felt blessed by the three of us coming, on two accounts, one being from her father. Definately feeling super happy about it.

so GLEE is fueled by superficial, shallow, but complex, high school drama teachers and students combined. and ive just gotta say that these first two episodes of the new season have been incredulously drama packed. its good stuff.

also i am still kinda the whole relationshippo thoughtz, but will carry on carry on......

the Christian song of the night is "Beautiful" by Shawn Macdonald
the secular song of the night is "Need you Now" by Lady Antebellum

quote of the night: "Phillip loves hearing about how beautiful he is."

this statement is true, but 'love' might be a hyperbole....just appreciates it every once in while lol...and if its in a awesome romanticized situation, you bet your bottom dollar i do.

haha, well thats all for now


Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Theres this creeper...

..who i know, but i dont know. ive got like two ta four guesses, who she might be.

anyways she's been reading my blog, formspringing me, and probably alot of other stuff i need not to know about.

pretty much, she laid down some conviction in the comments box of my last post....and yeah.

i apologize for seemingly obessing over my first love, who apparently everyone knows, in some strange/ awkward way or another.

so yeah, going be working on...moving on....ugh.

actually i have been trying to find myself in the weeks as of late, and its been only slightly productive, because "with every channel on, we don't know where we belong." which for me, is quite true, ive watched a bazillion movies, tv shows, and youtubes, this semester, and its blows my mind. but in the end i need to find myself with little outside influence.

so yeah, 'touche' creeper. God used you. and He got me good, as usual. definately wasnt expecting that.

goodnight my creeper(s)

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Emery week begins

im donating my ears to the band Emery this week.

ive had very strong urges, dreams, thoughts of a second chance with her.........
however its seemingly....a dream only.
ive had little talk with any of my female friends, unless they iniate the conversation with me, we won't talk. i will respond and converse with them if they decide to talk to me, but im trying to not start my own conversations, simply because i feel that....idk... my relationship with God needs to stabilize and i need to stop obessing about fallin in love and marrying the girl he has for me. for the time being....
its killing me.... a lot is changing. im becoming incredbily estudious and pwning the majority of my skool work, and it alongside my responsibilties at church is quite good at taking up the mass majority of my time and energy etc. i just need to find a transition to finding peace and joy in my solitude with God.
if she came, if she called me, i would answer...its a terrifying...yet...still... a beautiful dream....
:) :/ :(

Friday, April 2, 2010


top two girls await to see their loves

Wendy floating outside the open window.

Alice sitting/dreaming on the window sill.

bottom two guys been living without their loves, thinking they would never see them again.

Peter been restlessly sleeping for awhile.

Mad Hatter curling up under his fabrics...

Thursday, April 1, 2010


Today was a day, where i was bestowed a nice suprise.
She came to my house, without warning.
I dont think i can express how suprised i was. She was the last person i would have expected to show up on my doorstep. She came and we talked and it was a bittersweet (more sweet than bitter) restart to our friendship.

Life is goes on....
2010 has been a very unpredictable ride so far...
and i like it.

also i have lots of english hmwk, and poly sci studying to do for next week...pray for me.