Irony

"if i don't continue to invest in my relationship with God, my outlet i go to when my friends are with there significant others, i can have someone to go to and not feel lonely. without the relationship with God, my dive into movies and television would be just as unsatisfying as if i was watching porn every night." -Myself talking to my brother

...i've started watching porn every night.






help me.

Love comes

ive gathered that this is a new phase in life.
they change rather often or rather slow.
im coming to a point where i can recognize the phases...

Phillip's phase for this school year:

*focusing on relationships, mind you*

my best friend, my fetus brother and i are not going to be able to spend as much time together

i will cherish the weekends

my friend kelsey says we will be hanging out more

i will enjoy this

my dear raina is six hours away and cannot come home

i will do my best to go and visit her at least once both semesters

my good friend michael kreider is my suitemate for the skool year

i will rejoice and grow with him, in Him

my covenant brother colin has gone off to skool again

we have been growing apart for lack of communication...i will play my part in praying thru this relationship issues

~another part of the phase~

also i will have to learn how to control my jealously, when i am a friend i cannot be jealous...

i will rejoice in my solitude, while being active in my new community

(confusing isnt it, haha)

i will discover a little more of who i am by doing so

sometime i will find an open door and start to casually date

diving deeper into prayer and creative art worship

theres more but i cant recall it...no matter. this is the most notable...

Hakuna Matata

Love,

Phillip

Two Songs On My Mind

~In Shallow Seas We Sail _ by Emery~
I got eyes in the back of my head and I see where you're going with this.
I'm not surprised. You take me for a fool. Maybe you're right.
If I was wiser I would not have let myself come here tonight.

You're such a sap. You never learn.
Here I am watching the summer fading. (The summer we shared fades away with the winter)Your hands were warm on my face. Now they're crashing away. (Your hands were cold now...)Slowly pushing me away. Pushing me away. (Slower than icy veins slowly pushing me away)

I knew it (I knew it) right from the start.
I've got this big, big hole in my heart.
I wanted (I wanted) to put you in.
But for some reason you just wouldn't fit.
You just wouldn't fit.

You're such a sap. You never learn.
Here I am watching the summer fading. (The summer we shared fades away with the winter)Your hands were warm on my face. Now they're crashing away. (Your hands were cold now...)Slowly pushing me away. Pushing me away. (Slower than icy veins slowly pushing me away)Pushing me away.

Lust kept giving men so many regrets.
Just this once is what we tell ourselves.

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

Ships don't sink if they have wind in their sails.
But if the wind fails, is there hope for me? (I guess your love...)I thought your love was safe. The promise you made...(wasn't so safe, the promise you made...)

Now I am drowning in your shallow sea; I swim.
(you are the storm, the wind and the waves.
you break me in two and toss me away)

You are the waves that toss me in.
(I fell apart when I fell for you)

How can I float above the water that fills my lungs?
(you are the water filing my lungs,
killing me softly without a word)

Killing me softly without a word.
(Without a word...)

~Crumble to Pieces _ by Phil Wickham~
You raise me beyond the skies, into a city of eternal light
Looking down on the stars, I fly into heaven, caught up in your arms

I Breathe Your fragrance, taste your goodness,
Crumble to pieces
Into Your love
In Your presence all my existence
Crumbles to pieces
Into Your love

I’m speechless what can I say
Words become tears
As You wipe them away
All my kisses and crowns at your feet
Fire of heaven burn love over me

It’s such a beautiful story
I’m face to face with the King of glory
You rescued someone unworthy, I know this is love

..Two very different bands, genre of song. Yet they both are christian and they both sing about love..

Anglican Rhapsody

Packing Packing crackalacking

im leaving for Gaitlinburg, Tennessee tomorrow.

wish i could know...everything...well almost everything. That woman in indiana jones 4 wanted to know everything and her mind exploded, so i stick with desiring to know only a little bit more than i do now...and have faith/confidence in what i do know now.

I'm just a poor boy...with phacial hair....i need no sympathy

is this the real life? is this just fantasy? caught in a landslide, no escape from reality. open your eyesss look up to the skiesss and ssseeeeeeee

any way the wind blows doesn't really matter to me...

ON THE OTHER HAND

it matters alot

THUNDER BOLTS AND LIGHTENING VERY VERY FRIGHTENING

so you think you can stop me and spit in my eye?

so you think you can love me and let me to die?

OOOHHH baby! can't do this to me baby!

just gotta get out just gotta get right outta here

...i apologize for the above explosion of mixed feelings as a combined result from listening to Queen...lol

Last night I sought for Hakuna Matata, and lip sync'd to that and Scar's "Be Prepared". I also sang "Out There" from Hunchback of Notre Dame both Frollo and Scar (Timon, Pumba, Simba, and Quasi also have a fairly similar voice range to mine,but im more comfortable in their villians range) sing in my voice range, and i have a good imagination.

I also looked into my one of my devotional books for scriptures pertaining to some thoughts consistantly flowing through my head.

God agrees i need to be closer to Him, before i see her again...so i can...idk be content

with our progressing relationship.

One friend said i should put space between us while we were away...that didn't work out...however im attempting to become ok with some space in the inconsistant flow of communication/texts.

God is the only person i can instantly talk to...at any time of anyday, and expect an instant response back.

Not that im expecting to talk to her consistantly out the day, but wish i knew when she wanted to talk...there have been times i get paranoid about coming off as to obessed with talking to her...i have more self control than that...most of the time....lol

i apologize for this scatterbrained blog...just have the urge to blog...and didn't have a determined mindset like in my previous two blogs.

I am excited about the tennessee trip with my moms family! i am indeed.

i am also excited to begin my quest of seeing transformers 2 when i get there...please please please let me see that this week.. :P

Im going to see "UP"with my friendly neighbourhood vampire, after she returns home from her excursion to Denver...i wonder how her mother is doing?.... ;)

prayer prayer prayer prayer prayer prayer!!!

Lots O' prayers:

• safe travels for philip sorrells
• morgans upcoming trip to see her father
• my part of the driving that i'll be doing on the road to tennessee
• spain trip and all the peoples, rhearsals, plans, details, payments, sponsers, and more
• becca aragons last final for skool
• UTA registration
• Wendy Darling and all her relationships (friends, boyfriend, and her mother)
• me...Peter...

um...i believe this is enough blogging for the time being, will do another once i get to tennessee.

ttfn TA TA FOR NOW