sounds...in the stillness
june bugs, purring to the mama nature
the filtered water dripping into my fish tank
words being typed onto the screen
The score to 'The Phantom of the Opera' playing throughout the depths of my mind
ive come here,again, to question myself regain control over myself versus...letting my unconscieous spirit loose with the emotions, feelings, whims, along idle moments that apparate frequently amidst my life.
My mother cautiously asked why i was being short today...short tempered.
I knew i had been off and on...but hadn't questioned it. It didn't perturb me like it should. I know not what my flesh is doing or reasons behind my souls frequent desertions from body of a home.
I do believe i ignorantly send it away, every moment not spent in a somewhat righteous or God...Christ like thinking. This is not to suggest that anyone strives 24/7 365 days a year to be in a pure or holy mindset, and attitude. However in spite of the impossibility...it can be done with a genuine, and repentive, mindset that can is composed with integrity. A person with such a heart of confidence, fear, and determination can live on this earth. With the help of Jesus they can live a incredibly similar lifestyle that He walked...by blessing, loving others, while pointing them towards God.
My shortness, and a few other signs are symptoms of my separation from God. I need to spend some genuine time with Him...I need to 'Be still and know that He is God' (Psalm 46:10) so that i find myself wasting life in the idle moments it brings