Chewing my own tongue

i give you with the finest flower in the field

i love you

but ive hidden thorns on it

i don't care about you

your pierced; bleeding

...

i ask why your bleeding?

honestly i love you...

you still bleed

i really do

blood hits the ground

...

Mumford and Sons

I'm a Little Lion Man

Weep for yourself, my man,
you'll never be what is in your heart
weep little lion man,
you're not as brave as you were at the start
rate yourself and rake yourself,
take all the courage you have left
wasted on fixing all the problems
that you made in your own head

but it was not your fault but mine
and it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
didn't I, my dear?
didn't I, my...

tremble for yourself, my man,
you know that you have seen this all before
tremble little lion man,
you'll never settle for any of your scores
your grace is wasted in your face,
your boldness stands alone among the wreck
learn from your mother or else spend your days biting your own neck

but it was not your fault but mine
and it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
didn't I, my dear?

but it was not your fault but mine
and it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
didn't I, my dear?
didn't I, my dear?

but it was not your fault but mine
and it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
didn't I, my dear?

but it was not your fault but mine
and it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
didn't I, my dear?
didn't I, my dear?

Resting

i wake up each day with regret,
i trapped my life in a net,
God please help me out,
i scream and i shout,
because i may never forget...

im a monster,

i wish i was in your closet.

although that would make me a creeper.

im a monster,

i miss you.

everyday.

im a monster.

one day

i may heal

one day

i might try again

one day

they all will realize

im a monster.

honestly i think the only thing that i can smile about is my curly Roman style gladiator hair...but it doesn't replace what ive slaughtered.

~CelloFourte~

Skillet is coming out with ALL strings album before Christmas (O.O) WEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

I'm so excited

"i stay up late alot...not because i can't sleep. mainly because...oh i dunno, its something different every night; homework, catering job, 30 seconds to mars concert, video games, netflix, glee, flight of the concords (both who voiced in the same simpsons episode), reading, and talking."

haven't blogged in awhile

i love music

God is pretty awesome

i went for a walk tonight, talked and enjoyed the outside

also i watched some flight of the concords, which i really really really like now

i also like:

my hair,

Legend of the Guardians the owls of Gahoole

zingers,

Halo Reach,

Deathly Hallows Part 1 trailers,

Thor trailers,

piano,

undershirts,

Photoshop

life has been rough lately, my fault...undeniably my fault

wondering where to go from here..

It's dangerous business walking out your front door

I've been up at this all night long
I've been drowning in my sleep
I've prayed for your safe place
And its time for us to leave

Time is running, its running on empty and the gas is running out
I've decided that tonight is the night
That I let love aside
Full speed ahead this seems to be the place
I've seen this once before
Planned perfection sought in my dreams
Hoping this would take you home

My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
Kiss me one last time

Around this turn where the cross will cast your shadow
The people will all gather
To remember such a day
Where the flames grew as high as trees
And the world stopped
It stopped for you and me

My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your eyes)
My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
(So hold on tight)
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your...)

I will now bring new meaning to the word alone
Endless nights of dreaming of life
And the days we should have spent here

Drowning in my sleep I'm drowning in my sleep
Drowning in my sleep I'm drowning in my sleep
(x6)

Glass shatters and comes to a halt
I thought we'd be there by now
I thought it would be so much quicker than this

Pain has never been so brilliant
I made sure you were buckled in
Now you can walk hand in hand
Hand in hand with Him

My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your eyes)
My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
(So hold on tight)
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your...)

God's Chisel

nightlife

sooooo not going to bed till 2 a.m. -3 a.m. is becoming the norm...

im not a big fan of this...the bags under my eyes are beginning to weigh me down...

i like lighters,
& fire is pretty.

for the record, i wouldn't mind staying up this late...if i felt like i was doing something worthwhile...hah

I'm not okay, but...

"Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin' "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', ("This is my message to you-ou-ou")

Singin' "Don't worry 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."
Singin' "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', "This is my message to you-ou-ou:"

Singin' "Don't worry about a thing, worry about a thing, oh!
Every little thing gonna be all right. Don't worry!"
Singin' "Don't worry about a thing" - I won't worry!
"'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."

Singin' "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right" - I won't worry!
Singin' "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."
Singin' "Don't worry about a thing, oh no!
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!

My Chemical Romance

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)